Monday, May 30, 2011

The State of Things

Back in December, I had the opportunity to start thinking about my life. It was more like a wake up call, letting me know that if I didn't get something going, I was going to end up with nothing. I've spent the past few years caught up in a relationship that wasn't always very fulfilling, and I spent my time trying to fix or save what I thought was wrong. When I wasn't doing that, I was drinking, playing with music, and just generally hoping something was going to come along and a new path would lay out before me. Not surprisingly, things haven't happened that way. When the girl told me that we had no future together and never could, I realized I was 26, still living at home, working a decent but low paying job, no higher education, low credit, overweight, and now alone. It motivated a desire in me to change everything. I didn't care what it would take, I just had to find a way to become more than what I was.

Six months later, I've come up with a plan. I'm going to be taking a supervisor position at my work within the next month. The pay is more than I've ever made in my life. This income will allow me to pay off my debts and save money to move to Seattle by the end of the year. Once there, I can begin attending a school I've found with a great sound engineering course. It's expensive, but with my resume bolstered by the recent promotion I expect I can find a decent job to help me pay for school. My target is to begin during the January 2012 quarter. The long term goal is to get my degree and go to work in my career field before I turn 30.

I feel good about this. Confident. I'm not eager to leave my friends and family, but I can't wait to put this city and state behind me and have a real life, one that I can finally respect myself for.

Thursday, May 26, 2011


It's been a while, blog. My life is about to go thru some pretty radical changes, so I felt it was time to start using you again. I've changed. Everything has changed. And still, it will change more. I'm going to need help keeping track of it all, and that's where you come in. The idea is to spill my thoughts, feelings and ideas into you, knowing the only people I will share this blog with are strangers. I will never let anyone close to me know you exist, but I will offer you up to any faceless and unknown person online. This is an experiment: can people I have never met grow to know me better than those who see and speak to me every day?

Time to get started.